when i don't think of you.
i know, it's one of those cliche old country songs...but it's true. not a day goes by when i don't think of those friends who are far away, those close in soul and spirit.
i'm thankful for the memories i have, even if the actuality is that they are so far away right now.
sixteen things
Posteado en en 7:42 PM por amy
one of my friends on facebook did this, and thought it would be fun...so here are sixteen random things you probably never knew about me...
1. my favorite song of all time, hands down, is "drops of jupiter" by train...my favorite part is the refrain:
can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
your best friend always sticking up for you
even when i know you're wrong
can you imagine no first dance,
freeze-dried romance
five hour phone conversation
the best soy latte that you ever had
and me?
2. i'm one of the most frugal people you'll ever meet--and not in a good way! i tend to be a hoarder, but God is teaching me more about using my money and letting myself enjoy what i've earned...
3. i'm an honest-to-goodness neat freak.
4. i love, love, love christmas music. and the lights. and the season in general.
5. i'm a good gift-giver. at least, for people i know well.
6. when i get sad, i listen to mmmbop. when i'm mad, i listen to linkin park. when i'm having a dreary and dreadful day, i listen to mat kearney.
7. i'm a little bit in love with very big cities.
8. i'd rather take public transportation than drive.
9. i love how vinegar smells.
10. i usually wear my harvard tee-shirt for my hardest exam of the semester. just seems like good luck.
11. i have a hard time trusting people most days.
12. i really like to read...almost anything.
13. i'm finding as i get older and like more guys...that all the guys i like are the same in a lot of weird and disturbing ways.
14. i like to be able to find words to express how i feel, and i usually have to do this through writing.
15. i have a secret obsession with grands cinnabon cinnamon rolls.
16. my favorite thing to find on the TV? a toss-up between boy meets world reruns, that 70s show, gilmore girls, stormchaser/storm shows, or some interesting documentary on TLC.
1. my favorite song of all time, hands down, is "drops of jupiter" by train...my favorite part is the refrain:
can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
your best friend always sticking up for you
even when i know you're wrong
can you imagine no first dance,
freeze-dried romance
five hour phone conversation
the best soy latte that you ever had
and me?
2. i'm one of the most frugal people you'll ever meet--and not in a good way! i tend to be a hoarder, but God is teaching me more about using my money and letting myself enjoy what i've earned...
3. i'm an honest-to-goodness neat freak.
4. i love, love, love christmas music. and the lights. and the season in general.
5. i'm a good gift-giver. at least, for people i know well.
6. when i get sad, i listen to mmmbop. when i'm mad, i listen to linkin park. when i'm having a dreary and dreadful day, i listen to mat kearney.
7. i'm a little bit in love with very big cities.
8. i'd rather take public transportation than drive.
9. i love how vinegar smells.
10. i usually wear my harvard tee-shirt for my hardest exam of the semester. just seems like good luck.
11. i have a hard time trusting people most days.
12. i really like to read...almost anything.
13. i'm finding as i get older and like more guys...that all the guys i like are the same in a lot of weird and disturbing ways.
14. i like to be able to find words to express how i feel, and i usually have to do this through writing.
15. i have a secret obsession with grands cinnabon cinnamon rolls.
16. my favorite thing to find on the TV? a toss-up between boy meets world reruns, that 70s show, gilmore girls, stormchaser/storm shows, or some interesting documentary on TLC.
sweet reminders
Posteado en en 12:37 AM por amy
so it's 12:41am and i cannot sleep. not a serious problem, since i don't have to get up before 9:00am until thursday of this week, but i'm tired. just not sleepy. haha.
tonight was a sweet reminder of how life's come full circle in some ways. with friendships, and boys, and just...life. it's nice to see how some things don't change. how some people are by your side, through it all. sure, it's hard when people walk away and walk out of your life, and it will happen...but if you get lucky, you'll have some people who stick around. and maybe even some who walk back in your life later.
i have so much on my mind right now at this time of year. it's a hard time of year for me...a lot of difficult and painful memories are associated with thanksgiving and christmas...but for some reason, every year, i find i love Christmas more and more. this idea of joy in the darkness, of peace and purpose in the pain. the fact that so many things happened around this time makes the season that much sweeter, because i know Christ came and was human, and experienced all of this, and is yet fully man and fully God. such a comfort.
i take joy in the future..i know God's provisions are perfect. i can see that, now, as i look at the past...
tonight was a sweet reminder of how life's come full circle in some ways. with friendships, and boys, and just...life. it's nice to see how some things don't change. how some people are by your side, through it all. sure, it's hard when people walk away and walk out of your life, and it will happen...but if you get lucky, you'll have some people who stick around. and maybe even some who walk back in your life later.
i have so much on my mind right now at this time of year. it's a hard time of year for me...a lot of difficult and painful memories are associated with thanksgiving and christmas...but for some reason, every year, i find i love Christmas more and more. this idea of joy in the darkness, of peace and purpose in the pain. the fact that so many things happened around this time makes the season that much sweeter, because i know Christ came and was human, and experienced all of this, and is yet fully man and fully God. such a comfort.
i take joy in the future..i know God's provisions are perfect. i can see that, now, as i look at the past...
talk me out of tampa
Posteado en en 12:11 AM por amy
just kidding...i'm not going to tampa or anything. actually the name of a joe nichol's song that i really have in my head at the moment...
do you ever wish your heart and soul could just figure it out? i wish i could sometimes...a lot of times. i'm kind of tired of being alone. i know i'm supposed to be patient, but i'm kind of tired of being patient too. i guess part of me just wishes i knew either way--i don't want to live life hoping that i'll meet someone and never do...and i know, people say you aren't alone, but it's not a lot of comfort at the end of the day when everyone else goes home to their families and you go home to your dog, or cat, or fish, or whatever. i mean, i like fish as much as the next person, but they aren't human companionship. i forget what i was going to say here, but it was profound. i think. ERGGG. haha. some of my singleness frustration is just ooozing out here.
so here's the thing: everytime i think i've figured it out, for myself, i find out that it's not figured out at all. and the times that someone else thinks they've figured it out--well, we're just on different pages i guess. i'm not saying i want to be in a relationship. if i wanted to be in one, i mean really wanted to, i could probably find someone desperate enough to date the girl who changes her mind every fifteen minutes about what's next in her life. that's not what i'm looking for exactly--not a relationship, or not just a relationship. i'm looking for a reason to believe in love again, because as hard as it is to accept...i know that how it's been is not how it's supposed to be. i know i didn't "deserve" any of that (i use the word deserve losely because i find it difficult to think of such things as fair and unfair, etc.). this summer changed how i trusted people and opened up to them. i just need it to continue...
this post makes NO sense. haha.
do you ever wish your heart and soul could just figure it out? i wish i could sometimes...a lot of times. i'm kind of tired of being alone. i know i'm supposed to be patient, but i'm kind of tired of being patient too. i guess part of me just wishes i knew either way--i don't want to live life hoping that i'll meet someone and never do...and i know, people say you aren't alone, but it's not a lot of comfort at the end of the day when everyone else goes home to their families and you go home to your dog, or cat, or fish, or whatever. i mean, i like fish as much as the next person, but they aren't human companionship. i forget what i was going to say here, but it was profound. i think. ERGGG. haha. some of my singleness frustration is just ooozing out here.
so here's the thing: everytime i think i've figured it out, for myself, i find out that it's not figured out at all. and the times that someone else thinks they've figured it out--well, we're just on different pages i guess. i'm not saying i want to be in a relationship. if i wanted to be in one, i mean really wanted to, i could probably find someone desperate enough to date the girl who changes her mind every fifteen minutes about what's next in her life. that's not what i'm looking for exactly--not a relationship, or not just a relationship. i'm looking for a reason to believe in love again, because as hard as it is to accept...i know that how it's been is not how it's supposed to be. i know i didn't "deserve" any of that (i use the word deserve losely because i find it difficult to think of such things as fair and unfair, etc.). this summer changed how i trusted people and opened up to them. i just need it to continue...
this post makes NO sense. haha.
an human God
Posteado en en 10:55 PM por amy
so every once in a while, i'll hear a song, and it'll just GRAB me in some way. like the lyrics will reach out and touch me, deep, in a place i don't go too often. i'm finding more and more that thinking of the human aspect of God touches me in this way.
when i was in high school, one of my absolute favorite shows in the entire world was joan of arcadia. maybe it was because paul (or is it john? i always confuse the two...)...wait, totally just googled it and found out his name is jason ritter. okay, so jason ritter was on joan of arcadia as the very very hot parapalegic (did i spell that right? hmm...) brother of joan. i'm getting totally off topic. anyways, so i liked the idea of there being a tangible, visible God who talked to joan--even if she did think he was sometimes crazy. and i loved the theme song, joan osbourne's "what if God was one of us"...i mean, in all honesty, have you ever thought about it? if you just met God on a street somewhere? how would you react? what would you say?
one of my favorite bands, the fray, has an answer for this question, in their newest single, "you found me" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fs51Fo9fuGM). check it out.
the bridge of the song is most memorable:
early morning, the city breaks
i've been calling
for years and years and years and years
and You never let me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You've got some kind of nerve
taking all i want
the chorus goes on to say:
lost and insecure, You found me, You found me
lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
why'd You have to wait?
where were You?
where were You?
just a little late...
You found me, You found me.
this song really perplexes me. i think about people--if they actually met God, would this be the kind of conversation they would have? out of desperation? out of pain? out of feeling alone. let's be honest. at some point or another, even those of the greatest faith feel like they have been abandoned, left alone, thrown out by the Maker. this is gut-wrenching response to a man searching for meaning.
it's convicting in a sense. my call is to love the unloved, and to be Christ to those who don't know Him, who can't find Him, who feel "lost and insecure." in the end, we're all in the same boat, aren't we?
when i was in high school, one of my absolute favorite shows in the entire world was joan of arcadia. maybe it was because paul (or is it john? i always confuse the two...)...wait, totally just googled it and found out his name is jason ritter. okay, so jason ritter was on joan of arcadia as the very very hot parapalegic (did i spell that right? hmm...) brother of joan. i'm getting totally off topic. anyways, so i liked the idea of there being a tangible, visible God who talked to joan--even if she did think he was sometimes crazy. and i loved the theme song, joan osbourne's "what if God was one of us"...i mean, in all honesty, have you ever thought about it? if you just met God on a street somewhere? how would you react? what would you say?
one of my favorite bands, the fray, has an answer for this question, in their newest single, "you found me" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fs51Fo9fuGM). check it out.
the bridge of the song is most memorable:
early morning, the city breaks
i've been calling
for years and years and years and years
and You never let me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You've got some kind of nerve
taking all i want
the chorus goes on to say:
lost and insecure, You found me, You found me
lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
why'd You have to wait?
where were You?
where were You?
just a little late...
You found me, You found me.
this song really perplexes me. i think about people--if they actually met God, would this be the kind of conversation they would have? out of desperation? out of pain? out of feeling alone. let's be honest. at some point or another, even those of the greatest faith feel like they have been abandoned, left alone, thrown out by the Maker. this is gut-wrenching response to a man searching for meaning.
it's convicting in a sense. my call is to love the unloved, and to be Christ to those who don't know Him, who can't find Him, who feel "lost and insecure." in the end, we're all in the same boat, aren't we?
small town friendly
Posteado en en 12:46 AM por amy
i really and truly do have a love/hate relationship with my hometown. it's remarkable. for instance: i love the fact that it's small, there's no traffic, and i know where everything is. i love the fact that everywhere i go, there are memories. i love the fact that, in certain restaurants, the waiter or waitress already knows my order. i love stepping out of my car at midnight and being able to see every star in God's creation, spread across a dark sky with no interference of city lights. i love the hills, and seeing the mountains in the distance, and friday night football.
okay, so for the i hates....or, i don't like: the fact that it's small and everybody knows everybody's business ALL the time, the ignorance that sometimes surrounds small communities (as well as the intolerance), traffic jams caused by tractors (i'm dead serious), lack of variety in places to eat and shopping areas as well as entertainment, small town cops who'd like nothing more than to write you a ticket for going too fast down a backroad...
i love, and don't love, my small town, all at the same time. it's a weird feeling. love it in theory, not necessarily in practice. or maybe it's that i just don't like it in practice.
okay, so for the i hates....or, i don't like: the fact that it's small and everybody knows everybody's business ALL the time, the ignorance that sometimes surrounds small communities (as well as the intolerance), traffic jams caused by tractors (i'm dead serious), lack of variety in places to eat and shopping areas as well as entertainment, small town cops who'd like nothing more than to write you a ticket for going too fast down a backroad...
i love, and don't love, my small town, all at the same time. it's a weird feeling. love it in theory, not necessarily in practice. or maybe it's that i just don't like it in practice.
we're just one big family
Posteado en en 11:33 PM por amy
this weekend in TN was absolutely wonderful--so good to get to catch up some some fuge friends, see audrey's beautiful wedding, and just be able to get away, to clear my head, and to look at things afresh. i love my fall, my mountains, my sunsets...all things i want to hold dear in these last fleeting months as i begin to look to what is next. what's sure, however, is that God surely is in control of all things--i look at His hand in things this summer and i am in awe of His brilliance, perfection, and plan. because of that, i know i can trust him...even when it doesn't quite make sense.
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