fall is here...

maybe. i know it'll warm up again, but today was mi-70s with a nice northern breeze. it made me (almost) feel like i was at home. for some reason, fall just fits for me. the leaves, the high school football games, the bonfires, making fires in the stove, eating pumpkin pie, homecoming..it fits me like my favorite carolina hoodie. i love that about life.

the other day, as i was listening to the radio, the toby mac song "lose your soul" came on the radio. it was the first time i had really listened to the lyrics. it was the first time, more than that, i had really pondered the reality of the verse. we often think about "gaining the whole world, and yet losing your soul" in such a weird manner. i think about politicians, and movie stars, and musicians, and wealthy people...people who are searching with all that they have for satisfaction in the things of the world, and who are losing their souls in the process.

but it was in this pondering that i begin to think of all the ways i betray my God each and every day, and all the things of the world i look to for comfort and reassurance instead of my Heavenly Father. i'm not in the same boat as others, because i am a believer, but it still seems that even in our tradition we like to throw off our faith for the next thing that passes us by, that works out better, that gives us the answer we want to hear instead of the answer which comes from Truth. it kind of makes you sick, to sit back and think about the wretchedness of humanity and to see your place in it all. i'm thankful for Someone who can wash away my sins.