more time.

i promised you the world again

and everything within my hands

all the riches one could dream

they will come from me

i hope that you could understand

this is not what i had planned

please don't worry now

it will turn around

cause i need more time,

just a few more months and we'll be fine

so say what's on your mind

cause i can't figure just what's inside...

i've been meaning to blog for a few days, but i haven't quite been able to find the words to express what i want to say. do you ever feel like that? i've heard this song over and over the past few days, and each time it resonates more and more with what i am going through.  this is going to be the only "i'm sad i'm graduating and leaving and everyone is moving on" post, but i feel like i'm allowed to have one good one.  

i feel in-between.  not in birmingham yet.  in a lot of ways, it feels like i'm not really here, either.  things are moving on, without me. i knew they would, but it feels weird to hear plans and dreams of the next year and realize that i won't physically be here to see them come to fruition.  

a lot of this comes on top of stress--the wedding, packing/moving, graduating, camp, fears about what's next--if i can't find housing, or roommates, or friends...and the realization that i'm having a lot of "last" times, and "last" looks (see drew in elizabethtown) is quite scary.  the days when i can just hang out at the center are numbered.  spontaneous roadtrips are coming to an end.  i'll only worship with these people--some of whom i have worshipped with for four years--one more time, at least right now, and on this side of heaven, as a student.  and the kids at trailer park...that's a hard last time to think about.

it's funny that a year ago, all i wanted was to be out of columbia.  and now i'm realizing that i'm leaving behind a pretty big piece of my heart here.  

we're off to new lands

so hold onto my hands

it's a whole lot brighter

so stand by the fire

it's gonna be all right

yeah the road gets harder

but its not much farther

it's gonna be all right

you know it ain't easy

but please believe me,

it's gonna be all right

oh, please don't worry now

yeah, please don't worry now

oh, please don't worry now

cause it will turn around...