some truths.

i've discovered as of late that i've become a very bluntly honest person.  i can say almost anything around those i care about, and feel safe. it's nice to know i can share my opinion and not be shot, even if i am the person who will say what everyone else is thinking. so, here are some current truths:

1. i'm excited, and nervous, and scared about moving to birmingham. i never thought anyone could feel all these things at once, but, apparently you can. and i do, on a day-to-day basis.  

2. i love to talk on the phone.  people who don't know me well think i am really quiet, but....i like to talk a lot, especially to good friends. i'm more relational than i ever thought.  this means that i also use probably over a thousand minutes a month, sometimes a lot more.  

3. as i get older, i realize more and more the effects of not really having a father, especially around marriages. if i were ever to get married, there would be no point in having a traditional marriage. i don't want someone to fill a symbolic role like giving me away, when i wasn't ever really "theirs" to give.  i wish things could have turned out differently, but they didn't, and they aren't ever going to be how they should....and i'm growing to be more okay with that. 

4. i'm realizing the struggle i will face in seminary will be maintaining my spiritual walk in a world where i am constantly studying the Bible and Scriptures in an academic manner. i will have to discipline myself to continue to seek God's guidance through prayer and quiet times--something i've always struggled with.  

that's enough truth, and bearing my soul, for now.  well, maybe one more, a fun truth...

5. i make things valid on facebook...when it goes on facebook, it becomes a little more real--which is why i added samford to my networks, FUGE to my jobs, and changed my activities.  i'm glad facebook is a method of moving on, lol.

or maybe two..

6. red and blue m&ms are my favorite, because i think they taste the best.  i really do.   the whole, artificial flavoring tastes the same defense does not get by me! the peanut ones are the most wonderful.