can i just be honest and vulnerable for a minute? (as if i never am on my blog...i have a terrible way of wearing my heart and emotions on my sleeve, for the whole world to see).
moving is hard. meeting new people is fun. living in a new place is cool. but the new ones...they just don't immediately replace the old. it's hard, knowing that another world is going on without you, while you are waiting for your new world to start. only then, you realize that it's already started, and you have to jump in...and it's just hard to figure out exactly how to do that. i was--and am--so busy, that i haven't realized the implications of moving. the leaving. the being six hours away from home. the very real possibility that i may not see any of my close friends in the next calender year. the fact that phone calls are hard to make during stressful times, and that sometimes they make missing people even worse. and it's not that i want to replace people, because they can't be replaced...but on the other hand, if they could be replaced, this would probably be much easier...hmm.
classes start tomorrow. work and bible study start wednesday. i'm meeting new people--certainly more than i probably met in my first month at carolina. it's just a slow process...and it's much more difficult that i remembered, growing roots after being pulled up from somewhere that you really invested in, and a place you gave your whole heart to...
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