all that i'm after is a life full of laughter
as long as i'm laughing with you


i really like the new daughtry song.  sometimes i feel like i'm ten miles from town and just broke down too...emotionally, anyway. i wish it was easier sometimes.  the transition, i mean.

i've been living in alabama for over two months.  each day is its own day.  i'm struggling so much with letting go.  of my feelings. of my fears. of what i thought the future would be.  of my own dreams.  i'm afraid i'll focus so much on what i've left behind that i won't be able to see what i've gained here.  and i think i'm probably talking in circles through all of this.

the problem with me--and maybe with people in general--is that we want everything to work out now and be perfect now, on our terms. instant gratification.  that's not the way life is. that's not the way friendships are. relationships don't function in this manner, and that's not the way love works. it's a process. it's slow. it's worth it (or at least, that's what i'm telling myself).