if i just breathe...

it's the beginning of my thanksgiving break, and i can breathe again.  but, breathing's harder than i thought.

when i breathe, i think.  when i have time to think...i wonder.  i wonder if i'm really supposed to be in seminary.  now, i know i'm supposed to serve. i've gotten that down.  i guess i just wonder if other degree programs, like in social work, would have prepared me more.  i wonder if i'm going to have to spend the rest of my life in school.

sometimes i wonder if i really am at school just to get my mrs. degree. i mean, i'm pretty sure i'm not.  there's just so much...pressure, sometimes.  the world tells single people that if they weren't single, they'd be happy. and that's not the truth.

i just feel so unsatisfied with my life right now.  that's a terrible way to put it.  just in this moment, i guess. as i sit on facebook and look back, and think about how things have changed. i love where i'm at, and what i'm doing...i guess i'm just having a moment of frustration, and the crappiness of the paper i just wrote probably doesn't help that very much.

new resolution: adios, facebook.  at least, not as much.