alone.

do you ever have days, or moments, where you just feel alone? when, in a room full of people, you feel like everyone is walking right by you and you just aren't there? when you feel like most of the people dear to you have abandoned you? then, friends, you can sympathize with how i'm feeling. i'm not sure what has elicited this emotion in me, exactly. as of late, i guess i've been thinking a lot about camp. even on the hardest days, i never felt completely alone. what's more, i had twenty-two other people who, at any moment, could be--and WOULD be, and were, and still are--there for me. but life is different in the fall, back at school, in a routine. i'm not sure exactly what has happened, but i feel the need more and more to reach out, and it seems like i just can't. like people are slipping away from me, slowly, and i just need something to hold onto right now...

haha, sorry for being so strangely emotional and sort of morbid. that's not really like me...all of the time anyways! in other news...school is errgh. well, not really. i'm just ready to feel prepared for this exam and have it over--i knew this class was going to be hard, but worth it, and so far it is...it's just a little, tiny bit frustrating.

time for more studying!