the power of positive thinking

lately, i'm noticing the power of positive thinking. in specifics, i'm noticing just how positive i've been--kind of as a before-and-after with camp. life before camp was hard, and life after camp is hard, but i know because God is sovereign, He's in control. it makes life a whole lot easier. so negativity becomes much easier to shun, and it seem you find the urge to squelch it. to make people stop being negative, which is easier said than done.

i just feel in control right now, in this very moment, and it is a wonderful feeling. i feel like God is taking care of it all. i mean, i might start freaking out tomorrow, but tonight i'm at peace.

did i mention i love fall, and the fact that next week is going to be in the 60s? if i ever do get married (and it's looking pretty doubtful), it's going to be in the fall. i've been through too much crap in the fall, so it needs to redeem itself, and it is the most beautiful time of the year. you know, the whole beauty is in the fact that these leaves are so brilliant as they are finally dying...how beautiful we would be if we died a little to ourselves every day, and i think that is a wonderful portrait of what marriage could be.