it ain't me, babe.

today, the sermon at mbbc was on matthew 6, on the Lord's prayer (part dos).

it convicted me a lot. and it reminded me of this johnny cash song as well...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ROdphzJIHA

see, here's the thing.  we like to think we know what's best for us.  this, my friends, is a lie.  the Lord alone knows what is good, and it is His plan and His purpose that are important--the prayer does say thy kingdom--not mine.

that's a hard thing to get through my head.  i want my kingdom to come so badly sometimes.  the kingdom where i have enough money to be comfortable, and everything comes easy to me, and i'm never lonely, and i'm with the right person, and where everything always goes according to plan...

but the bottom line is that it's not about me, or my kingdom. and God knows best.

as johnny tells june...

"i'm not the one you want babe/i'll only let you down."

anytime we try to seek our own kingdom, or our own wills, we end up unhappy.  without joy. and we usually fall flat on our faces.  we don't know what's best for us...

but the Lord does. and that is a comforting thought to me right now.