there's gotta be [something more].

it's fall in the big ham. and i love it.  i haven't experienced--like over more than a week experienced--fall in four years, so this is a welcomed season change.  it did get back to ninety this week, but if i can look at pretty leaves, it makes it easier to pretend that it's sixty, especially in the AC.  this week is supposed to be more seasonal.  leaves change and the air becomes more crisp.  there's a wind blowing across your face. it's fall. and it's feeling more like i'm home, and i haven't felt like that in a long time.

i'm finding the comfort moments are coming more, and the pains come less.  they do come.  today, when i saw williams brice, i was sad for a moment.  there's nothing like cheering with 80,000 fans for your gamecocks, especially in a city where everything is crimson.   tuesdays don't feel as hollow anymore.  i'm not as envious when i have to reply "not attending" to a bcm facebook event.  it's getting easier, and fitting.  i'm okay with that.

i do miss writing.  i miss it a lot. i write a lot of academic stuff, and i blog...but i don't really write.  no stories.  no poems.  nothing really creative.  it makes me miss writing classes and being able to really invest in something i loved.  i love what i'm doing...but i miss the beauty of words.

but...baby splawn will be here in february! yay!